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[25 Jun 2009|11:49am] |
So I was in a car accident last Saturday. Was sitting in traffic on the 60. The worst part about it is that I was not even a mile away from Mill. So me being impatient was about to go into the hov lane and looked but as I was changing lanes a blue chevy truck was right there and I side swiped his passenger door. So I was freaking out crying... I have no money and knew I was most likely fucked. But he was a 19 year old kid and was not mad at all. His car was not even that badly damaged. But my front left headlight was gone and I have a pretty knarly dent too. Doug was in the car with me and if it was not for him, I would have freaked out. I am so grateful to have him in my life.
Other than that... and being very very poor. Erin and John are in Ireland and I have been watching Pita and Owen. It is really lonely here without them but they come home Sunday and there will be many stories to hear.
Doug and I's one year is on the 8th and I am so excited. I love him so much and can't wait to celebrate it :)
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[17 Jun 2009|09:49pm] |
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lifes pretty much amazing.
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[28 Apr 2009|12:00pm] |
Last week Erin and I looked at three houses that were all promising. We ended up choosing the last one we saw. It is pink haha. It is on College and Southern. It is nothing way special but it is nice. Big rooms, big backyard, and a big kitchen. OH and we have a cute fire pit in the backyard! We turned in applications on Saturday and were approved TODAY! It is cheap and affordable. I am so excited. I have been waiting for this to happen for 4 years and it is finally happening. I am going to be so close to Doug and close to ASU. I am happy to get closer with John and Erin too. John and I have been drifting apart the past year and I am glad to build our friendship up again, and with Erin too. It's so weird to think that a year ago we were enemies. Now we get along great and I am so happy about that. Finally, yes finally.
Doug and I went to Coachella two weeks ago. One of the best times of my life. Getting to see Paul McCartney was a life changing thing for me. And to see Beirut. So amazing to experience such a great concert. And Doug and I got to go to the beach together :)
Everything is falling into place for me. The only thing to worry about now is to finish school and get a better paying job. They are opening a buffalo wild wings across from BJ’s. I am gonna try and get a serving job there once it opens.
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[25 Mar 2009|12:53pm] |
so no new house. guy fell through. i was so upset last night but i am better. some things in life just don't work out. but erin and i are looking and we have found some that look pretty decent. we still would really like a pool. we need to find one by the end of april. ha. wish us luck. erin is gonna drive around friday and we are going together on monday to look more.
so jeff and i are talking again and its actually been kind of nice. i missed talking with him but i will never forgive all of the pain he caused me. its just nice to know he is doing ok and we are able to be civil.
i bought lots of new clothes today and i am very happy. but now i am broke until tuesday haha. its all good. john's party is friday and i am so excited to be with all the people i love.
things with doug are amazing and i could not ask for a better person to be in love with. its almost his birthday and i am so excited! and after that we are going to coachella and spending a day in orange county in like 3 weeks! paul mccartney and beirut. ahhhhhh!
lost is tonight its gonna be a good one!
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[11 Mar 2009|10:04pm] |
mmmm
i move into the new house in less than 2 months.
gonna go schedule classes for asu next week.
i love my boyfriend so much.
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[24 Feb 2009|04:57pm] |
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so soon!
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[10 Feb 2009|11:55am] |
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I am going to be moving out into the prettiest house in the world, with my best friend and with Erin. A year ago I would not even be in the same room with her and now look. She is awesome. I am so excited. I really cannot believe this is happening. I never thought it would happen. The house is all redone with a pool, tile, and fancy appliances. So many pool parties this summer! I am so close to Doug and ASU. Everything is working out so perfectly. Life is beautiful. Finally. Finally.
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[06 Feb 2009|02:11pm] |
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I am happy. So happy. There is so much to look forward to. I love my life and all the amazing people that have come into it in these past few months. I have found my place. I waited so long for feelings like this to happen. Now that I have these feelings and do not see them ever going away, I feel like I am ready for what obstacules are to come. I used to have to rely on myself way to much. Things are so much better it makes me feel like me again. For once in my life change has been a positive one. I feel so alive.
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[27 Jan 2009|12:05am] |
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I want this semester to be over with already haha.
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[20 Jan 2009|01:35pm] |
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President Obama. That is so nice to say.
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[19 Jan 2009|11:21pm] |
Perfect = My life.
Perfect. Almost.
Now. Who wants to move out with me? I have been trying to move out with someone for the past three years. Have come so close so many times. But I guess I tend to make shitty friends who bail on me. I am in school, have a well paying job, and I am awesome. Maybe I should just get a studio apartment. Damnit. I hate even talking about it. It makes me too upset.
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[03 Dec 2008|11:16am] |
:)
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[18 Nov 2008|08:56pm] |
I wish I had my own place.
I wish I could have a birthday party.
Yay 21!!
Sigh.
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[10 Nov 2008|02:43pm] |
I fell in love again, all things go, all things go
Drove to Chicago, all things know, all things know
We sold our clothes to the state
I don't mind, I don't mind
I made a lot of mistakes, in my mind, in my mind
I drove to New York in a van, with my friend
We slept in parking lots I don't mind, I don't mind
I was in love with the place in my mind, in my mind
I made a lot of mistakes in my mind, in my mind
You came to take us, all things go, all things go
To recreate us, all things grow, all things grow
We had our mindset, all things know, all things know
You had to find it, all things go, all things go
If I was crying in the van, with my friend
It was for freedom, from myself and from the land
I made a lot of mistakes...
You came to take us, all things go, all things go
To recreate us, all things grow, all things grow
We had our mindset, all things know, all things know
You had to find it, all things go, all things go
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[08 Nov 2008|01:15pm] |
I don't remember the last time I was proud to be an American. Real change is about to happen.
Today is my and Doug's four months :)
We are going to shabu fondue and I am so excited!!
It's totally my favorite place ever.
I love him so much.
I turn 21 in two weeks!!!
There will most likely be a party fooo shooo!
Things to look forward too
-Birthday and being 21 FINALLY
-Two Thanksgivings
-NO SCHOOL
-Christmas
-New Years
-VEGAS/Beatles LOVE
<33333!!!
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[27 Oct 2008|12:09pm] |
These past few months have been some of the greatest times I have ever had in my life. I have finally realized how blind and naive I was about my past. I look back on my life and get so frustrated with myself. But it's the past now. To have gone through something so life changing like that has made me who I am today. I love the person I am. If it never happened like it did, I would have never met Doug. I would have never had a new insight on how I portray my friends and the world around me. My whole world is finally, finally, making some sense and I can breathe easy and just live it. My relationship with old friends is strong and my relationship with my new friends is strong. I have never been so content with the friends I have.
I had defiantly after everything that happened, had built this wall up. My heart was still recovering and I did not want anyone to hurt it. I was absolutely terrified of getting hurt again and having to feel that pain again. I did not want to fall in love. I swore to myself that I was done for a really long time. I did not want a relationship or anything of the sort. My trust issue with guys was non existent.
Ever since my birthday last year, ever since I first saw him and we started talking, I knew. I knew that somehow we would be together in the future. I kept brushing off the idea but he kept appearing in my life. I would keep running into him at school and at parties. Every time we saw each other, we hit it off again like we had known each other for years. He makes me want to live again. He makes me feel like I have never felt before and to think of all the strange ways we kept finding one another again, it was just meant to be. These past few months the weight and the guilt and the sadness has been lifted. There is no more bullshit in my life. No more lies. No more what ifs. No more. I was so afraid to fall in love. But I could not help myself from opening up to him. He has the biggest heart out of anyone I have ever met. I love our relationship. I enjoy being around him. When we are together I feel complete and feel like this is what I have been searching for. I have wanted this for so long. Life takes you were you are supposed to go. I know that this is where I want to be in my life. This is what I want and I would not have it any other way. He is what I want. I know that this is going to last. I am not questioning... just living. That is the best part about it all.
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[09 Sep 2008|09:39pm] |
I am so tired. School is so terrible this semester. I am so sick of these bullshit classes I have to take. I just want to start teaching. I miss being in the classroom. It sucks that I am not doing any service learning this semester I miss it so much. I miss the kiddos. I wish I had money. Damn school. Damn work. I wish it was always the weekend.
Doug came and visited me at school though and I was so so so so happy. Little things like that can just make my day and he made mine. AND I listened to John Lennon all day and it calmed me down. Does not matter what mood I am in or how I am feeling, he can always touch my heart.
Hurry up October.
Hurry up November.
Hurry up December.
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[02 Sep 2008|02:36pm] |
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In about a month I will be in New York City on John Lennon's birthday. I will get to go to strawberry fields in central park and sing songs. If anyone does not know, that is one of the things I thought I would never get to do. That is like my dream. The weather is going to be so nice. I get to stay and hang out with Tristan. We will chill on his roof and it will be bliss. It’s going to be the best four days of ever. The best part about it all is I will get to experience this with the person I love. There is so much to look forward too. I am so happy.
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[27 Aug 2008|03:21pm] |
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It's the third day of school and I am so tired. And now work starts back up for the next six days. So so tired. I miss summer. At least the weekend is a three day weekend. I saw Anthony Green last night. It was so good. I love him, especially when he sings to Levi and I. Just us though. I think this is my 5th or 6th time seeing him and it just only really gets better.
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| Flotation. |
[25 Aug 2008|12:12am] |
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Summer. You always want the summer to be better than the last. The beginning of summer was so pathetic and miserable. Then out of no where, as if I did not even notice it was happening, I began to become myself again. Met amazing people and found someone who can brighten my life. I have grown so close with myself yet I am scared to have what I have sink in. I am scared I can lose it all. It always happens and I don’t want my happiness to become my demise. At least with school starting now and more hours at work I can keep a little focused on what “matters” in life. Shit man, I am one happy camper. I am not going to really worry myself with issues that mean nothing really. Just a fear that I will I guess always have now. Let’s make the rest of the year better than the last. What am I saying. I know it will be better than the last. It will be epic.
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